The Chenbot Confessional

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

Nick and I are really in control of this tribe. Kelli thinks she's in with us. Mariah thinks she's in with us. It's great! We can pick and choose, now. I came up with a plan to ensure Brad can't get an idol. Although I'm all for being one big, happy, Tikal tribe, if Brad gets an idol, we'd have to cut one of our own. Well anyway, I was originally hiding with Nick, but then I switched to hide with Kelli. I then told Brad to hide in the same temple, but if he asks, I told Kelli to say we're in a different temple. Since me and Kelli posted first, Brad can't get an idol for sure. Also, by not being in the same temple as Nick, if he gets another idol he might give it to me! ;D It's win-win!

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I feel really bad about deceiving Brad... He seems like a really cool guy, but he doesn't even have a chance to stay after Pixie goes... He got screwed by a twist, then I ensured the fact that he'd be going if we go to tribal council. I know it's just a game, but still... I feel like I'm being really two-faced to him. I gave him a warm welcome to the Tikal tribe, but I sealed his fate just minutes before... Right now, I think that the three in control of this tribe are myself, Nick, and Kelli. Well, at least Nick and I are. I'd definately try to save Kelli over Mariah, if it comes down to that, though. Hopefully, it won't, but if it does, Kelli's got my vote to stay .

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I feel totally safe going to tribal council tonight. Pixie is going home, finally, and we can now focus on being a strong tribe. I'm not sorry in the least to see her go... Now I need to focus on maintaining my spot in the hierarchy of this tribe. The only way to go if your already on the top is down, so I'm watching my back. I think Brad has to try to get Mariah to flip, and if she does she's toast. I'm not going to flip to help Brad, even if Nick asks me to. Nick has options like that because he's safe until the merge. I'm not, so I'm trying to stay an active participant in our tribe, while staying off the others' radars.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I have three objectives for this challenge. First off, I want to win immunity. Secondly, if an idol is offered, I want to win it. Third, I want to ensure Brad doesn't get an idol, so Tikal can have another easy boot if we go to tribal again. I'm really glad that I didn't make a set alliance with anyone but Nick. I like both Mariah and Kelli, so I'll feel really bad if I have the vote one of them off, but now atleast I can make a decision based on what's best for my game, not by who I'm in an alliance with.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

Kelli did AMAZING in the challenge today! She almost singlehandedly won the challenge for us. She went all out and tore through those barricades like they were nothing! The only thing that bothers me is how many people are going to make the merge. Already, eight idols are in people's hands. That means that only about 2-4 people without idols will make the merge... That really makes my chances of getting there really slim... Luckily we're not going to tribal tonight, so I'm really happy about that. It means that there's still one definate boot before me, in Brad. Hopefully next challenge I'll get an idol. That's my main goal right now... After that, I really don't know what my plans are... I'll figure it out.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I'm a little bit worried about all the merge idols being given out... I mean, already eight people are guaranteed to make the merge... How many spots are left? Two? Four? I really need to get an idol... Then I'll feel safe, but right now... I don't. Well, I feel safe with my tribe for now, but what I'm the only person on my tribe without an idol? However, I'm also worried about which idol I get. The different colors make me feel like there's going to be a MAJOR twist. I think that if there's a twist, it will be bad....

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

This challenge was really tough... I worked my ass off to keep Carrie from scoring, but then Kesha came from nowhere and took the lead for Coba... . I don't think that Tikal is going to win immunity, and I don't think I'm gonna get an idol.... This challenge for me was a complete waste of energy.... Hopefully Jacob gets the idol, and gives it to me. It's not very likely, but a girl can dream, right? ;D

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

Jacob is a very strong player. Suprisingly, he already has a power position on our tribe, although only he and I know it. I think Nick might know, too, but he hasn't shown any indication that he does. Jacob quickly became an ally of mine, and he seems pretty solid. He showed that he has a sense of loyalty, because he didn't want to vote off his old Tazumal tribemate David, and really pushed for David's safety. Hopefully, he'll stay loyal to me .

At the challenge, Carrie and I had a face-off, but it wasn't a serious face-off. I think that we clicked a little bit, or she's just a friendly person. Either way, I almost wish that I had been placed on Coba in the beginning because Carrie and I would make a great team .

Kesha, on the other hand, really came off as unfriendly and rude to me. She wasn't all that conversational and I don't think I'd like to be on the same tribe. She has an air about her that was very negative. I don't like her much based on the interactions we had...

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

Tribal Council went perfectly! Brad went home and I didn't get votes ;D. I felt a little bad for Brad because he was blindsided, but it's a game, and I can live with it. I think that we're coming to a merge soon, especially if Tikal wins immunity. If we win, Garret probably automatically goes home because everyone else Coba has an idol, then we'd merge because after that it would be impossible for them to vote anyone off.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

If we merge, Jacob is convinced we can flip Kiefer to our side. Personally, I'm keeping my eyes on Jacob, because he could be a very strong player down the road. If we get Kiefer, I'm going to try to get the boot order as Chris, then Tom, then Kesha. After that, I plan to turn on Jacob and go with Carrie, AJ, Nick, and Mariah to the final five, boot Carrie and AJ, then throw the final immunity challenge. This isn't set at all, but that's my plan for now. As to whom I'd like to face in the final two, definitely Mariah. I think that she'd come off as a follower, and could be a good goat. However, I would like to be at the final two with Nick... Either way I'd be fine ;D. I just don't want to let Jacob near the end. He is a strategic player, and I trust him for now, but... He's going to be manipulative, so I need to watch him.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I'm so happy we merged! ;D Tikal is down 4-6, or so Coba thinks... Kiefer flipped to join us, and he thinks Kesha will as well! It's great! The only bad part about this was that Mariah was eliminated.... I knew I needed an idol badly, and luckily Kelli gave me one ;D! Because the jury started at 12, I think there might be a final three. That would suit me fine if it's me, Nick and Kelli. Right now, the three of us teamed up with the old Tazumals to take out Coba and Tom. I think at a random tribal council down the road I might throw a vote at Kesha, so that if we go to the final six we can have the upper hand in a tie-breaker. Anyway, the first target is AJ, unless she wins immunity. If that occurs, Carrie will be sent home.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

The idol twist was a shock. I thought that there would be something, but nothing like what actually happened. It's really frightening, because I have no idea what the other idol powers are, and they could be anything. I need to be really careful from now on. Luckily, my idol is a vey useful power. Basically, it allows me to nullify votes for anyone I want. I'm probably going to save it until I have immunity, then use it to shake up the game. However, most likely I'd use it to save Kelli or Nick, but if saving someone else is to my advantage, I'm not going to stick to alliance or tribal lines. It's an individual game now, and I'm all for me.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I was right. Jacob was up to no good. He was in with Chris, and he wanted to go to te end with Chris and Kiefer. Now he's in for a shock when he gets voted out tonight... . My new group is Kelli, Nick, Kesha, Carrie, AJ and myself, with old Tikal and Carrie as the final four. After Jacob, the plan is Chris, then Kiefer, then Tom. Kesha would go next, then AJ. I still want to go to the end with Nick and Kelli, but if it's a final two, I have no idea who I'd pick. Probably Nick, although I might have a better chance against Kelli... That's in a long time, though, so I'm not gonna bother with it now.

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

I need to thank Carrie. She not only put the target all on herself, but also is one of the most hated players right now! I have a final two deal with her! I could beat her so easily right now... If we stick to the plan, the final three should be Nick, Carrie, and myself. I know Nick would take me to the end, and I know Carrie would take me to the end, so that would be win-win for me. I'm really starting to think that I could win this thing... I already outlasted more than half the people originally here, I'm in the majority alliance, and I have no target on my back! Right now, if I go against Carrie in the final two, I'd get Nick, Kelli, Jacob, Chris, Kiefer, Mariah, and David, with AJ probably voting Carrie. Against Nick, I'd get Carrie, AJ, Chris, David and Jacob, because Jacob seemed to think him leaving was Nick's fault. Against both of them (if it's a final three) I'd get Jacob, Kiefer, Chris, and David for sure, and maybe pick up Mariah or Kelli. I'm in a very good position right now, and I like it! ;D

[Julie Chen [streetlightrox]]

Kiefer and Jacob are two of the most bitter people I've ever met. I really need to get to the end against Carrie now if I have any shot at winning this. I kow and it is possible. Right now, I think I could make the end doing nothing at all because I'd be a good goat based on how Kiefer and Jacob are acting. Carrie would make another good goat, so we're sticking together. I think it would be best for the two of us to propose a female alliance, then take out Chris and Tom. I want to keep Nick as long as possible, because I'll feel really bad when it's time to vote him out... Right now, Carrie, Kesha, and I are my ideal final three. I really think that we could make it, too.